Mid 2013, that’s my beginning. I started digging into the Bible, to learn about God and hear from Him. I wanted the Living Word alive in my own life.
I had read some of the Bible before, and it was nice to check it off my list, or to highlight and stop in awe for a second or two and stare, even re-read verses if they hit that close to home. I would pick it up sometimes and then maybe not again for weeks or months.
This time I really wanted to understand the people, the cities, the lineages and where they came from. To understand God’s heart, to see the practicality and apply it all to my own life. To develop a relationship with God.
I was on a mission, and whew did I not have any clue what I was in for.
When I started, I decided I was going to read the Bible from beginning to end. I like things in order, so this was a good plan for me, or so I thought….struggle city to say the least, goodness gracious.
It was tough and I wanted to quit some days, and I did at one point. I was at a standstill, frustrated and wanting more, not knowing how to get there. My sweet boyfriend (now husband) kept telling me “if you seek Him, you will find Him, don’t give up babe”, so I pressed on.
I made Jeremiah 29:13 my go to verse, after searching ‘seek’ in my bible app, I hadn’t made it anywhere near that far in my reading yet. It says “You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”
I painted it on a canvas and hung it on my wall. I took a screen shot on my phone and made it my back ground, and I would say it to myself when I was discouraged.
During this Jeremiah 29:13 season, God was working things out, in detail.
In February of 2014, my sister invited me to go with her to a Bible study she had been invited to by a friend of a friend.
It was her first time, so pridefully I thought I would go and support her, as she started this. I was already seeking The Lord, so I didn’t need to go. I thought I was only going for moral support, little did I know. From the moment we walked into that living room, something was very different.
I had not met such open, vulnerable, and loving women in a long time, if ever. The lesson was so practical, the group of girls incredibly real. We ended by praying for the woman to our left, OUT LOUD, and I was terrified! I had never done that. I did and it was magical, the presence of The Lord was so thick in that room. Tears were streaming down my face as my mouth opened and out came a prayer I never imagined would leave my lips! I had never prayed out loud in a group setting… EVER!
I called Seth on my way home, I told him this was exactly where I needed to be, to grow in the way I had been desiring. I kept going week after week, growing and growing with the Lord. Within a few months we were members of the church the life group is based out of, there has been no looking back since.
To say my life and heart have changed dramatically in the past two years would be an understatement. I have to thank The Lord for sticking to His promise, I sought Him with all of my heart and my oh my did He ever show up.
The thing is, I had to get to a point where I wanted a relationship with Him, more than I wanted my own way, and if I’m honest some days I have to re-make that decision. But it is always worth it!
I have learned what it is like to silence myself to hear from Him. Sometimes He speaks to me even when I’m not silent, or asking for it, but I love those times the most.
So this space is born out of a group of women I get to spend time with each week, learning about Jesus, and the Word, as well as just loving on each other.
In sharing my revelations with them, some of the girls expressed that they can relate, and it helps them understand the Gospel. So I decided to share what The Lord reveals to me with the world.